Waiting....
Nov. 22nd, 2005 09:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lls_mutantAnd waiting... and waiting...
What's frustrating is that waiting saps any creative energy I seem to have. I want to do nothing but read chicklit novels and sit around. Perhaps because this is the last time in years I will get to do that.
It's funny. I thought I would be spaz at this point. And I know I'm happy, excited, scared... all the normal feelings of someone about to have a baby. But I feel pretty calm and don't really feel much of anything. This has happened to me twice before in my life, and both times were Big, Life-Changing Events. Once was around when my father passed away, that time from right before his death until after his funeral. And once was when I got married. I think the emotions are so overwhelming my mind just turns them off because they're too much to deal with.
Anyway, back to my waiting. Maybe I can convince myself to write....
What's frustrating is that waiting saps any creative energy I seem to have. I want to do nothing but read chicklit novels and sit around. Perhaps because this is the last time in years I will get to do that.
It's funny. I thought I would be spaz at this point. And I know I'm happy, excited, scared... all the normal feelings of someone about to have a baby. But I feel pretty calm and don't really feel much of anything. This has happened to me twice before in my life, and both times were Big, Life-Changing Events. Once was around when my father passed away, that time from right before his death until after his funeral. And once was when I got married. I think the emotions are so overwhelming my mind just turns them off because they're too much to deal with.
Anyway, back to my waiting. Maybe I can convince myself to write....
