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[lls_mutant]

Whoohoo! I have computer access at my Mom's! Sort of, anyway. I also have a long, long list of things to do this week for my sister's wedding (I'm currently typing her program). But at least I get to check on things.

SO wish I was going to The Witching Hour. I would have liked to have done a fic reading- maybe Mentors or the last bit of Deny Thy Father. And I really, really would have liked to have met everyone! But the wedding (and being so freaking pregnant, but more the wedding) definitely takes precedence- there is NO way I would miss this! Even if it would get me out of looking like an utter tank. I had my dress fitting the other day, and the salesladies kept telling me how beautiful I looked. I flat out laughed. I look PREGNANT... and while I'll accept I look good in my own clothes, perhaps, I still think I look like a tank in my bridesmaid's gown. I mean, my sis has good taste and it's nowhere NEAR as hideous as it could be, but it's still a BRIDESMAIDS GOWN. You're not supposed to look good in them. It's in the definition.

They also wanted $120 to alter the dress. WHAT? The dress only costs $190!!! So I threw a bit of a fit, because it was supposed to be in by September 17 so I could take it home and have it fitted by someone who didn't charge an arm and a leg, but they didn't order it on time and I couldn't. So they're only charging me $85. Sheesh.

On the bright side, we get to go see my sister's dress tomorrow. THAT will be gorgeous! :) And I'm going to visit Grandma today.

I'm very aware that this week might be the last time I see my grandmother. I won't get up here again until after Toby's born, which will probably be a good 3 months, assuming I don't have to have a C-section and Toby arrives on time. I really, really don't think Grandma's going to make it that long. It sounds awful, but I hope she doesn't. She's going downhill so fast. I'll be sorry to see her go, and sure I'll miss her. But the woman is 95. She's done everything she wants to do in life, except see my sis get married and see her first great grandchild. And she believes that when she dies she'll be with my grandfather and my father. And right now, she's suffering. I would rather she die one night in her sleep peacefully than suffer- I really would. She's having trouble with her mind, she's losing control of her elimination functions, she's not independent at all anymore... and as one might expect, she's miserable. So I want to be sure I get to say goodbye, because I really hope she doesn't live 3-4 more months, only getting worse and worse.

Anyway.

I suppose I should get on my other wedding-related jobs. If I don't get back to comments or whatever, rest assured it's because I'm running around up here. I'll be back next week.

Have fun, all! Especially those going to TWH!

Comments

[jlarinda.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry about your grandmother being like that and suffering. Isn't she the one you always mentioned you wanted to make a character of? :S she sounded so cool.

What is the Witching Hour?

[lls-mutant.livejournal.com]

Yeah- that's her. She's very cool, but yeah. Not good for her.

The Witching Hour is a HP-centric conference. Academic papers, fics being read, gathering in general... would have been very cool. However, sis's wedding definitely outranks!

[marauderthesn.livejournal.com]

95...wow. That's a good long life.

I wish you were going to TWH too, so I could just give you the present I made for LupinsLittleNephew instead of asking you to e-mail your address to maraudertheslashnymph@hotmail.com so I can send it to you. ;D

[lls-mutant.livejournal.com]

It is. That's exactly why, while we're sad, we're not devestated. We should all be so lucky! And she was still playing golf at 90!

And that's so sweet of you! I'll email you my address when you get back from TWH. Please, please, PLEASE give a report when you get back! :)

[poolman.livejournal.com]

I just had a conversation along these lines with Julia last night. She's down to one grandparent left out of four (I'm down to two out of eight, thanks to remarriages and whatnot). But despite the fact that I've lost six people I consider grandparents and she's lost only three (ha, "only"), I think she's had the tougher time of it.

See, of all the grandfolk I've lost, only one of them visibly suffered, and ALL of them died with all their mental faculties pretty much intact and sound. They all knew who they were, they all knew their families, and they pretty much all passed away suddenly and without a lot of painful hanging on.

Julia's grandparents died slowly. One grandma had Alzheimer's, which terrifies her immensely. The other grandma (who is still alive) is sliding into senility very quickly... she called last night to see if we had her stuffed bunny that she had given Julia as a little girl. The grandfathers died under long and painful circumstances.

I have a good idea of what you're going through and thinking, Lissa. I hope your grandma finishes her life on her terms and with a sense of accomplishment. That's all and of us can really ask for.

[lls-mutant.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. I'm glad that people are understanding exactly what I mean. Death can be sad, but it IS a part of life, and when people are older, it's easier to watch them die quickly than Alzheimer's. I don't blame Julia for being terrified- watching my grandmother right now makes me want to never get old. It's scary.

Grandma did make it to Chrissy's wedding- the ceremony, anyway- but she decided not to go to any of the reception. Howard told me she was looking for a bathroom when she arrived. The only one we knew of (it's not our church) was down a curved, narrow flight of stairs. Needless to say, she didn't make it there. I have a feeling she might have had an accident and didn't want to come to the reception because she was so embarrassed, but I think also she was just so exhausted. (Chris's wedding started at 5:30, and Grandma's bedtime is around 6-6:30.)

I'd really love for her to meet Toby once he comes, but if she continues to slip like this... ten weeks might not sound too terribly long to us, but to someone her age, it definitely is.

Thanks so much- I really appreciate it! :)