Waiting....
Nov. 22nd, 2005 09:19 pmAnd waiting... and waiting...
What's frustrating is that waiting saps any creative energy I seem to have. I want to do nothing but read chicklit novels and sit around. Perhaps because this is the last time in years I will get to do that.
It's funny. I thought I would be spaz at this point. And I know I'm happy, excited, scared... all the normal feelings of someone about to have a baby. But I feel pretty calm and don't really feel much of anything. This has happened to me twice before in my life, and both times were Big, Life-Changing Events. Once was around when my father passed away, that time from right before his death until after his funeral. And once was when I got married. I think the emotions are so overwhelming my mind just turns them off because they're too much to deal with.
Anyway, back to my waiting. Maybe I can convince myself to write....
What's frustrating is that waiting saps any creative energy I seem to have. I want to do nothing but read chicklit novels and sit around. Perhaps because this is the last time in years I will get to do that.
It's funny. I thought I would be spaz at this point. And I know I'm happy, excited, scared... all the normal feelings of someone about to have a baby. But I feel pretty calm and don't really feel much of anything. This has happened to me twice before in my life, and both times were Big, Life-Changing Events. Once was around when my father passed away, that time from right before his death until after his funeral. And once was when I got married. I think the emotions are so overwhelming my mind just turns them off because they're too much to deal with.
Anyway, back to my waiting. Maybe I can convince myself to write....
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Date: 2005-11-23 03:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-23 03:38 am (UTC)I can tell you it's going to be exactly on time, because I fly on the 25th thus ensuring that I'll miss it all. I bet you'll be sitting right there at your computer when it starts and everyone on lj will know except me! *is not self-centred drama queen or anything*
Thinking of you and wishing you all the best.
*love*
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Date: 2005-11-23 03:39 am (UTC)(hugs)
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Date: 2005-11-23 11:11 am (UTC)Btw, I just found the sling's manual. You want me to mail it?
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Date: 2005-11-23 01:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-11-23 03:28 pm (UTC)If you get tired of waiting, try lots of shagging. Worked for me.
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Date: 2005-11-23 04:49 pm (UTC)Listen to this woman!!
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Date: 2005-11-23 05:31 pm (UTC)I'm glad that you're calm and relaxed - my sis said she felt the same - very introspective. I was with her (and her hubby) in the delivery room, and it was just... wow.
Good luck to you! {{{{HUGS}}}}
And get some sleep now while you can!